Saturday, June 27, 2009

Smiles

The switch from morphine was huge. We've grown accustomed to his being mostly catatonic, but last night we noticed that that he had become interested in one of his many IV tubes. So we gave him a toy slinky and what happened next floored us. He began shaking it around and smiling. It may not seem like much but, in that moment, we unexpectedly saw our little boy again. For hours before that we had to stand by as Jerry desperately squirmed around in his bed with the discomfort of needing to cough and the fear of how painful it would be to do so. To this point he has barely cried because of how painful it would be for his little throat, but you could see it in his eyes as they darted back and forth from mom or dad, to the ceiling, to the wall... There was nothing we could do but maybe cry for him. But the new pain med changed everything. He cries now and he coughs when he needs to cough and he really wants his mommy. Our fussy baby is back. Who would have ever thought that would make us so happy?

3 comments:

  1. So happy he is improving! :) Hope he is feeling even better tomorrow!

    Patti B.

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  2. love yoou jer jer
    jus jus

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